recently a quarrel broke out btwn some friends.

apparently, when something happens, people tend to save their ass first.

which left the last person to know abt anything bcome the scapegoat for everything.

so when questioned, instead of saying 'yes we said it together'

people will say 'yes SHE did say this'

apparently the word 'TOGETHER' disappeared

we will say we get upset that people talk abt us bhind our back no matter good/bad

but won't we too be upset if we were reprimanded straight in the face ???

it's a contradiction.

i love my friends & treasure every friendship i have because they are hard to come by..

u never knw who's gna be the one that walks the 60/70 years down the road with you

then again i've been thinking why isit always when situations like that arise, im the devil

probably bcos im down on luck, i look more like those who don't give a damn abt friends, i get more worked up than others bcos i've experience of friend leaving all of a sudden?

SOOOOOOOO.....

from tday onwards, im going to be direct with all the friends u may not even like the taste of it

bcos im sorry, im a cancerian, it's our trademark to 'forgive but NOT forget'

i am gna b straight forward bcos i don't want to have conflicts like that again

i don't like the feeling of being blamed for everything / words & things i haven't said

it's not going to be the same bcos the 'bond is broken'

everyone will wear a mask to face one another bcos u're nt gna knw who's the one who'll do the same thing again..

now, lets talk abt the few years friendship i have

the other day when i met jojo quek, we had alot to talk seriously.

we're both quite the same, we are so tired of putting into a friendship of no returns but when that someone needs help, we appear first, but still they don't appreciate it.

& please don't bullshit to me that in a friendship we give & ask for no returns

face ur conscience bfore u say anything like that..

my boyf say, that person's not worth, i knw that long time ago

but NO, im still there for her still there waiting for the returns

i think a friendship is like a relationship

it's built with many time, laughter, tears, anger which actually makes it a strong building

but just a storm can blow it apart in seconds.

i dislike u, but i still love u. so it's kind of confusing, im not lesbian but im ur friend, take a look back sometimes, u might b able to find something u left bhind.

a true friends who will pick up the subject like we just met ystd.

that's the kind of friends i want, i need & of course i do have some like that

im lucky, but not so lucky

im blessed, but no so blessed

im loved, but not so loved

BUT, one thing i know i definitely am, I AM ME.