i had a busy day this whole afternoon.
rushed to bukit timah shopping centre to do sth urgent. then rushed off for tuition. but bck home it was a different story.
i was eating & tearing. its the first time im eating in the kitchen, my parents knw i nvr liked eating in the kitchen, i always bring my food to the living room.
but its so weird to let them see me tearing away. i made mummy gave me a hug &teared alil.
what's fucking happening to me.
does all stupid/dumb girls have this fucking problem???
nobody will be able to heal this wound. none accept him.
but it seems like 'goodbye' was the only thing i could say to myself. tell myself he's not coming bck.
i really thanked dan &alistair for the advice &for my non-stop whining to them, they accepted it.
i cant be alone now, i need people to entertain me every fucking minute.
thanks melody for finding ways to divert my attention.
xing yuan who spotted i wasn't in my right state.
kirk thank you too for saying i shuldn't commit so fast. i'll learn my lesson
thank to my that shell's colleague whom i dnt knw his name. but webcam for quite awhile. saying i shuld smile more. though he knws nth bout my condition. he just said i look really unhappy.

i met cgy just now. he asked if i had sleepless nights due to alan.
he say im having really dark eye rings & eye bags.
weekiat accompanied me till 2plus & bought me my fav soya milk for me! thanks brother
fat hope on thinking i'd spend this valentines wif him.
he blew my hope &crumpled my heart.

i need to cry badly. to cry out loud in someones hug. i'll be cheerful during my dinner wif colleague tmr. PROMISE NO TEARS! but tell me how...

cheerful stella will be back soon!! GOGO!