i believe 've hurt my dad wif my shouting and behaviour yesterday. but if one always bottles things up. there will be no happy ending as well.
maybe my colleague dont treat me as a kid bcos i behave differently at home &outside.
at home, i yearn for love from my parents. bcos dad always cares more about rach &mum always cares more about my brother. outside, i behave mre independently i should say. in dad's eye there is only rach, bcos why, rach performs well &everything. but mum once said to dad. rach is the type even if we pass away she wouldn't want to hold the joss stick. sometimes i have a picture of myself strangling rach. 'm thinking too much. what if the devil in me really comes out 1day? well hope it wont. i dont want to commit a crime.

okay anyway. grace has a good offer for me.
after she has bought her own hse & is not staying wif her in-laws. meaning only she & bro-in-law. i will move over to stay wif them till rach get married then 'll move back =D
in that case i shall be moving out in 1 or 2years time.!!!! cant wait!
ok anyway, i still love my parents. but i nvr like bias parents.
rach dont feel this way bcos shes the one my parents are bias twds. which teenager would like to end up this way? moving out? i dont like the idea of it. but i guess it would be better for me in the long run. at least i dont picture the bias-ness at home.